Life happens – and what does happen isn’t always pretty. It is bad enough to face having a progressive illness, but then life adds additional stress.
Sometimes the stress can be some big event that we face, a very real problem that hits us like a bolt of lightning from an unexpected fierce storm. In these moments of adversity, the symptoms of our illness may be increased – and I believe that stress can and often does make everything worse. So what do we do? I do all that I can.
I must remind myself repeatedly that some things are totally outside of my control. Like the Serenity Prayer directs me, I try to let go of the things that I can not change – which is hard to do because I can easily let the adverse circumstances, combined with my mental interpretation, bring me to a place of utter fear and emotional breakdown. I try to do healthy actions despite the adverse circumstances and try my hardest to not get caught up in the natural course of emotions which flood me about the event. I allow the emotions to be there, but not stop me from having healthy actions and a bit of hope that no matter how bad things are that something good may come out of the adverse event.
I am currently facing such an event right now involving deep concern and stress over someone I care about. I don’t want to go into details other than say that I am doing my best to get through it using my strength, some support, and allowing the natural course of events take place. Yes there is worry, fear, and a bunch of emotions but I use my energy to try and focus on recognizing that I can only do so much and then must accept things not as I want them to be, but how these circumstances unfold.